wallpaper: the tattoo of the design world
There are certain things commitment-phobes shy away -- neigh, bolt -- from: marriage, carpooling, children, buying a house, tattoos, wallpaper... Any one of these things would certainly send shivers up the spine of any free-wheeling spirit. They represent making a choice and then having to live with it beyond the "honeymoon" period, well into the unknown territory of the future. "Where will I be in 30 years?" is a thought that churns my stomach in the middle of the night.
But where would be without commitment? We'd be stuck in a Groundhog Day type of existence, with one day bleeding into the next, without learning anything. Sometimes you just gotta say the proverbial "Fuck it" and marry that awesome person, buy the house with the high ceilings, throw up some non-removable wallpaper and laugh nervously about the choices you've made.
That's where my head was at when I saw this little beauty:
El quijote - wallshoppe
Something about her just made my heart speed up, which hopefully is a sign of love and not something more serious. How could you not love this 2 dimensional explosion of persimmon happiness? But then worry sets in... it's bright, it's garish, it's orange. This is definitely not wallpaper you can take home to your mother. What if I hate in two weeks? Or - gasp - what if my husband hates it so much he secretly harbors resentment that slowly eats away at him every morning when he wakes up and it's the first thing he sees and it leads to DIVORCE?
Eh. It's just wallpaper. And if my marriage is so fragile its fate is decided by some stupid colors, then it wasn't strong enough anyway and he was certainly no match for me. Because I love color. I love being stupid and carefree and making crazy decisions. And if I don't do that, then I am not living.
It's LOUD. It demands your attention. It's so bright it creates its own light source. It's crazy. Just like life. As soon as I put it up, I felt my brain synapses firing. I felt the movement of the house coming together, collecting like constellations and stars in the Milky Way, gathering to go in one direction toward a beautiful purpose. One of these days I will get some actual photos done, but for now, you'll just have to imagine what it will look like when fully styled. I will, of course, calm it down a bit with more graphic, muted colors and artwork.
Future buyers are going to absolutely hate it. But for now, I live here.
